I am through feeling bloated, tired and too full. My eyes have been bigger than my plate for too long and I am done with it. As of today, I am putting my life on a diet.
Don’t get me wrong. I am not quitting on life or on my obligations (relax and breathe, dear husband, if you are reading this). I have just decided to “cut the fat” and trim them back.
When I was younger, I loved to have my plate full of things to do. I took on every new challenge and said “yes” to every request for help with no worries or apprehension. It was no problem; I had all the time and energy in the world with which to do them. Since I have gotten married, had children and added a few years of experience to my life, things have changed. My metabolism isn’t the only thing that has slowed down. So too, has my capacity for movement and energy.
I simply can’t do all the things I used to do and, what’s more, I simply don’t want to anymore.
Nutritionists will tell you that the best way to find success is not with a fad diet that cuts out all of one thing. You are more likely to have success in your diet if you don’t deny yourself one thing completely, like cutting out all carbs or all protein. I need to do the same thing with my life. I can’t altogether quit my life, or even cut out one part of it. I certainly don’t want to quit my marriage or my parental obligations! I can’t quit my job, this blog, or my club (nor do I want to).
So, what can I do? I can learn to say “no”. Reviewing my life through this lens, there are a lot of things I do that I don’t HAVE to do, a lot of tasks I take on that I simply don’t have to be responsible for. I have accepted these tasks, not because they help my life or my career but simply because it felt nice to be asked. Scientists say that eating chocolate can increase the serotonin and endorphin levels in the brain, leading to a sort of “high”. I feel that same “high” when people ask me to take charge of something. Simply said, it’s a rush to the ego. But then, after the initial feelings wear off and I am faced with the details of what I have actually committed myself to, I suffer the same “crash” chocolate eaters do.
I need to get over my addiction to ego boosts, just like I need to get over my addiction to chocolate. I need to get “high” from other parts of my life. I want to do this. I want to have the time to enjoy the quiet in my life. I want to stop being tired all the time because I’ve overcommitted myself.
I’m going to lose the extra weight in my life by getting rid of my ego. I don’t need to carry that around anymore. It’s too heavy and unhealthy.